All my demons have your eyes, I see them every time I close mine,
Especially when this new boy is kissing my thighs;
I wonder if he can feel where you bit the word “mine” into my skin?
What a beautiful lie you told.
He holds my hand & complains that I’m always cold,
he doesn’t understand that I’m dead inside & that you’re not giving me back my soul, no matter how many times he calls me beautiful, but it’s still nice.
He thinks I paint my nails red because red is my favorite color but really they’re red to honor how your heart bled for me, I’m sorry that I left you just as dead inside.
It’s probably best that you’re with her & I’m with him, even if all your demons do look just like me, at least her love allows you to breathe."
I drink wine coolers in the middle of the day,
instead of hard liquor now & that’s gotta mean something.
I don’t need to numb the pain anymore, just take the edge off.
I’m going to be okay.
Maybe not tonight or tomorrow-
But you’ve moved on & I know I’ll eventually do the same.
I hope you’re happy.
I hope the sky pours sunshine every day,
And you don’t have to experience any of this rain.
Because I love you.
No, I’m not in love with you anymore..
And I really don’t even like you anymore;
Although it’s nothing personal, I guess all those lonely nights led me to feel like this- and that’s okay.
But because I did love you with every thing you left in me,
I don’t wish you anything but happiness,
After all of this, I really hope you find some kind of fucking happiness.
You’ve crushed spirits & shattered hearts;
You’ve made my bedroom feel like hell,
now every boy I invite in has the devil’s eyes,
they all look just like you."
replacing my heart with another liver so i can drink more and care less
I knew we found love at 5 AM. Our short phone call had turned into 6 hours long. You had to get up in a few hours but you stayed on the phone with me all night. My cheeks hurt from smiling so hard into my cell phone and my eyes were drooping and I couldn’t stop yawning but my heart was wide awake.
I knew we found love under a frozen sky. My lips were frosty and chapped, but you still kissed me anyway. I could see our passionate frantic breaths between each kiss, your spit froze onto my face but I couldn’t care less. I was blushing, but I don’t think you could tell because we were so flushed from the cold.
I knew we found love the day I met your family. At dinner they kept asking me questions and I was so nervous that I could barely even respond. My hand was shaking so hard that you held it under the table to calm me down. When they weren’t looking you mouthed “I love you” to me and without hesitation I mouthed it back.
I knew we found love during our first fight. My mouth was sore from screaming and my eyes stung from the tears that trickled endlessly down my face. You wrapped your arms around me so tightly that I wasn’t sure where I started and you began. You softly whispered I’m sorry into my ear and I frowned. Not because I was still angry about what happened, but because I knew no matter what you did, I’d always be yours.
I knew we found love, when you touched me in a way that no one else had before. Your hands wandered across me, as if you knew exactly where they needed to be. Your dilated pupils looked at me through the dark and shimmered. You grinned. There was no turning back.
I knew I lost love, when you wiped the tears off my cheek, and the only word that left my mouth was “stay”. I watched you walk away into the street from my window, I slid down the wall and felt my heart slowly stop. Everything was dark and cold. I wanted you so bad. It’s just the feelings were still there but you weren’t."
- me: yeah i saw that last year on tumblr